Another Bad Day

Where do I start this one? Friday, I found out another good friend of mine (We dated for two years) Mike McKittrick, passed away. He was only 46, the same age as Lawrence was when he died of a heart attack last year. I have known him for 10 years. I just can't believe it. People are supposed to be living longer nowadays. I am really freaked out about it. I had been thinking about him recently. Wednesday, the day he passed away, I actually used an old term he always used to say to me when I told him I going somewhere or doing something; he'd say "okay, I'll let you". It was so weird, cuz when I said it, I kinda wondered why I had said that in response to someone out of the blue like that.
What next????? I can't write much more right now. Still too upset.

Later.